Who got afraid?

Still ...i am not clear.... 

It was a fresh and breezy morning. When i got up, not a soul was next to me. Last night, we six went to bed together. My 4 cousins, sister and me. 

No one nearby. “Where those 5 went without taking me ?? ”. I felt it as heartbreaking. Jumped from the bed, i ran and came to downstairs. Acha was reading news paper from living room. I did not heed him. Went to amma in kitchen. She was preparing breakfast with velliyamma.  “Where did everyone go, leaving me alone? “  

 “ They tried to pull you out from bed. But, you did not get up. They went for jogging without taking you.”,

 Ohhhhhhh !!!!...... yesterday’s hot plans came to my mind that time. Yah!... We decided to go for jogging from today at sharp 6.00’o clock. Now its 6.20 !!.... I felt sad. 

 “Can i just go and check where they will be? “...was my next question to mom. She allowed me to just go for 10 min walk and to come back. I was happy and ran outside. Dad saw me running outside impatiently. He called me and told me to go after brushing. “ Ohhhh....Before they come back, I have to go. If i don’t join with them, its shame for me”. He did not agree. ... so sad. After 2 minutes he just saw me in a momentary look. I ran out from my home... not jogging. Had only aim to find them.  

Road was calm and quiet. Nobody in my sight. I started to run. Suddenly, i saw a dog coming opposite to me. I started to run back to home. Ohhh ... That bloody creature also started running with me... Running so fastly....!!!!!!!!!!!!!...........  When i was small, i learned that Dog is a great athlete. I experienced that on this day. I cannot see in my mind's eye, how fast i ran that moment in time. I ran near to my home. Hummaaa!...... Gate was closed. I got struck there. No time to open the gate. Turned back. Just 1 feet back of me, its standing....  I closed my eyes strongly , screamed,...shouted... ....*&$^$%^*&*....... It took a while for me to realized that, nothing happened to me. Slowly... when i opened my eyes, i saw dog running away from me ...back to road. I saw velliyamma and achan running near to me.  I was in shock. When, i woke up, i was on bed. Amma, came with a cup of tea and said “No one will go for jogging from tomorrow.” After i got struck near gate,...What happened?? ...I tried to recollect .... Dog got afraid ??? I think so...Anyway i did not get afraid. Because, I was in a cataleptic mind... from the time i saw the dog running back of me.

My plan went wrong.

When my uncle got married, I was just 7 year old and my chechi was 9.

We enjoyed a lot. Marriage was a grand function of 2 days.

We both did not take leave from school, as marriage was on Sunday.

Sunday evening, everything was cool and calm. Everyone went back to there home after marriage.

We both were gloomy and moreover, tired. Mom reminded us to sleep early as, we have to go to school tomorrow.

That made me saddened. Chechi packed her bag. She did for me also. I was gloomy. Fully upset.

Monday morning, mom took me to bathroom, to try to make me clean from 2 days dirt. I troubled her in the middle, by pouring water on her dress. She got angry and started shouting at me .

From her talk, I understood that, she is on leave. And, planning to go somewhere.

I asked her, where she is going.  No response from her as if, she did not hear my question. 

I also, kept silent after that.

I cannot leave it just like that. I will get answer from amama.

When she left me out from bathroom to dress up, I ran near to my grandma. She was doing pooja. 

I went and sat on her lap. She kissed on my forehead and, told me to go and wear uniform.

I put my question to her. She told, all are going to aunt's house.

 I could not stay there for a second more. “Why they are not taking us?.....!.....”

I jumped from her lap and ran to chechi. She was in uniform dress, ready with her bag.

I told the sad news to her. She was cool, as if she knew that before. She forced me to wear uniform. I felt to cry loudly. “Why my mom cheated me? Why she is doing this with me ? “

Did not want to leave. Still,  I got into school van. I was sitting next to my chechi. I thought, I need to find some way out for this. I also want to go with them. 7 year old brain couldn't think much more. I need to find a way to come back to home. 

Yes... Finally, I got that. !.............

I started weeping. “ cannot sit. Ayoooo….Stomach Ache…!....Stomach Ache….”.

Not sure whether chechi understood my trick that day or not.

We were near to school and I started to cry loudly. Driver uncle felt bad and, he took me to my class teacher.

Chechi also came with us. She could not bare her small sister crying because of pain. Class teacher asked uncle to leave me back to home.

Yes.. Thats it !! I was happy. I don’t know how to express.

Till I reach home, my drama continued.  Amma and Amama was shocked when they saw me back from school.

Amma came near to the gate and took me on her hands. I started crying loudly. She tried to make me calm. “What happened? “ that was the only question from her. He told whole story to her.

She was relaxed. Kissed me on my cheeks and asked, “For this,..u cried ?”

She told thanks to him…and send him back. I was OK by next 5 minutes.

After 10 minutes, she came with an old dress. She told me to change my uniform.

I eagerly asked her, “Why are you not taking me with you ?... I am also coming. “.

She again took me on her hands, and told “You are not well . right? So, be here with your amama, Even she is not coming. And, you will be a good and healthy girl by the time we all are back from that home.”

Ohhhhhhhhhhh…God !........... What should I feel ?

All plans went wrong. I could not cry. 

Only me and amama were there at home.  School was better with friends around.

My plans,…..My tricky thoughts,…Everything went wrong.