Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Still i am not clear...............


Still ...i am not clear....


It was a fresh and breezy morning.
When i got up, not a soul was next to me. Last night, we all went to bed together.
My 4 cousins, My sister and me. Now, no one nearby.
“Where those 5 went !..... without taking me ? ? ”. .....I felt it as heartbreaking.

Jumped from the bed,i ran and came to downstairs.
Dad was reading news paper from center hall. I did not heed him. Went near to my sweet mom. She was preparing coffee. I put my query in front of her. “Where all those went, leaving me alone? “

She smiled to me and told, “ They tried to pull you out from bed. But, you did not get up. They went for jogging without taking you.” ..........

Ohhhhhhhhhhh !!!!...... yesterday’s hot discussion came to my mind that time.
Yah!... We decided to go for jogging from today at sharp 6.00’o clock. Now its 6.35 !!.... I felt depressed and confused.

“Can i just go and check where they will be? “...was my next question to mom. She allowed me to just go for 10 min walk and to come back. I was happy and ran out.

Dad saw me running outside impatiently. He called me and told me to go after brushing.
“ Ohhhh....Before they come back, I have to go. If i don’t join with them, its shame for me”.
He did not agree. ... soo sad.

After 10 minutes he just saw me in a momentary look.

I ran out from my home... not jogging . My venture was to find them.

Road was calm and quiet. Nobody in my sight. I started to run.
Suddenly, i saw a dog coming opposite to me. I started to run back to home.
Ohhh ... That bloody creature also started running with me... Running so fastly....!!!!!!!!!!!!!........... 

When i was small, i learned that Dog is a great athlete. I experienced that statement that day.

I cannot see in my mind's eye, how fastly i ran that moment in time. I ran near to my home. Hummaaa!...... Gate was closed. I got struck there. No time to open the gate. Turned back. Just 1 feet back of me, its standing.... 

I closed my eyes strongly , screamed,...shouted... ....*&$^$%^*&*.......

After 2-3 minutes, i realized that, nothing happened to me.
Slowly... when i opened my eyes, i saw dog running away from me ...back to road. I saw my aunt and dad running towards gate.

When, i woke up, i was on dad’s bed. Mom, came with a cup of coffee. Smiled at me and told. “No one will go for jogging from tomorrow.”

After i got struck near gate,...What happened?? ...I tried to recollect ....

Dog got afraid ??? I think so...Anyway i did not get afraid. Because, I was in a cataleptic mind... from the time i saw the dog running back of me.

Monday, March 23, 2009

My plan went wrong..............

When my uncle got married, I was just 7 and my sis was 9.

We both were so happy. We enjoyed a lot. We got 3 new dresses from uncle. Marriage was a grand function of 2 days.

We both did not take leave from school, as marriage was on Sunday.

Sunday evening, everything was cool and calm. Everyone went back to there home after marriage.

We both were gloomy and moreover, tired. Mom reminded us to sleep early as, we both have to go to school tomorrow.

I was fully saddened about that statement. Sis packed her bag. She did for me also. I was gloomy.Fully upset.

Monday morning, mom took me to bathroom, to try to make me clean from 2 days dirt. I troubled her in the middle, by pouring water on her dress. She got angry and started shouting at me .

From her talk, I understood that, she is on leave. And, planning to go somewhere.

I asked her, about my doudt. She continued her work as if, she did not hear my question. I also, kept silent.

I decided to get answer from my grandma for this question.

When she left me out from bathroom to dressup, I ran near to my grandma…. She was doing pooja. I went and sat on her lap. She kissed on my forehead…And, told me to go and wear uniform.

I did not listen her words. I raised my question to her. She told, all are going to aunts house.

Hearing that shocking news, I could not stay there for a second more. “Why they are not taking us?.....!.....”

Jumped from her lap and ran near to my sister. She was in uniform dress, ready with her bag.

I told the sad news to her. She was cool, as if she knew that before. She forced me to wear uniform. I felt to cry loudly. “Why my mom cheated me? Why she is doing this with me ? “

Somehow, I got into school van. I was sitting next to my sister. I thought, I need to find some solution for this. I also want to go with them. 7 year old brain started working very fastly. I started thinking for a reson to come back to home. Finally, I got that. !.............

I started weeping. She asked me, what had happened…. I told her, “ cannot sit. Ayoooo….Stomach Ache…!....Stomach Ache….”.

Now also, I am not clear, whether she understood my trick that day or not.

We were near to school. I started crying loudly. Driver uncle felt bad and, he took me to my class teacher.

My sister also came with us. She could not bare her small sister crying because of pain. Class teacher allowed to take leave. She told driver uncle to leave me back to home.

I was happy. I don’t know to express that now. Till I reach my home, my drama continued. Mom and grand mom was shocked when they saw me coming back to home.

Mom ran and came near to the gate. She took me on her hands. I started crying loudly. She tried to make me cool. “What happened? “ that was the only question from her. He told whole story to her.

She was relaxed. Kissed me on my cheeks and asked, “For this,..u cried ?”

She told thanks to him…and send him back. I was OK by 5-10 minutes.

After 10-20 minutes, she came with an old dress. She told me to change my uniform.

I eagerly asked her, “Why are you not taking me with you ?... I am also coming. “.

She again took me on her hands, and told “You are not well . right? So, be here with your grand mom, Even she is not coming. And, you will be a good and healthy girl by the time we all are back from that home.”

Ohhhhhhhhhhh…God !........... What should I feel ?

All plans went wrong. I did not cry. It took time for me to come back normal state.

Only me and grand mom were there at home.

My plans,…..My tricky thoughts,…Everything went wrong.